Repetition Makes An Impression

jazztothemax @ 2009-12-16T23:15:00

2009-12-17T04:15:32Z

My life is so good right now.
:)

Interview thingy

2008-09-01T16:41:30Z

1. Leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a very personal nature.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed you will ask them 5 questions.

Mine via Jaclyn

1)Who have you been jealous of and why? (I'm looking for an answer that does not include money or relationship, those are like, givens)
Currently I'm jealous of people who are closer to their families than I. :(
2)What dish soap do you buy?
Currently I'm using Ultra Palmolive...it's phosphate free! :)
3)Favorite book?
Wicked by Gregory Maguire...It's a lot deeper than the play and has some holocaust-esque undertones. It touches on the true nature of evil by using a little kids story and flipping it on it's head. Pretty amazing. Definately something Peggy would like. haha
4)What's your view on abortion?
I 'm pro-choice. Completely.
5)If you had to be one, hooker or stripper? Why?
Stripper, because then I would have less of a chance of getting some nasty std or something. But I'd have to take some dancing lessons. haha

Best day ever? Yes.

2008-08-08T12:51:47Z

Yesterday I:
1) Laughed with Juliet Lewis
2) Watched Eve not be able to roller skate
3) Got directed by Drew Barrymore
4) Discussed the high five and shared a high ten with Jimmy Fallon
5) Got smiled at and high fived Ellen Paige
6) Got paid for it all!

:D
Go see Whip It when it comes out. It seriously looks like an awesome movie.

jazztothemax @ 2008-07-23T00:18:00

2008-07-23T04:29:48Z

For my graduation gift from my parents I have been enrolled in scuba lessons. I've scuba(ed) before, so it's kind of a refresher course, but now I can register to get my certification! woot!

The funniest part though is all the books and videos you watch keep saying "Make sure to keep breathing," "Never ever forget to breathe," "The singular most important rule of scuba is to never stop breathing." And one reads this and thinks "...duh." But it's amazing how acutely aware of your breathing you become when underwater. All of a sudden you have to think about every single breath you take and remind yourself that air will be there, and not water. It's almost like a panic sensation, you have to fight your senses.

When you actually get to dive though, and you're comfortable with all of the equipment you have, all of the panic goes away. All of a sudden you're surrounded by the most vibrant colors and life you've ever seen, and your only obligation is to breathe. There's no need to think about all the problems you may have, you're too distracted by everything to think about that anyways. All of a sudden you gain access to about 70% of the planet that not many other people get to see. It's like a gift from nature, access to the one of the most private sector of her being...and all you have to do is breathe.

Contradictions, paradoxes, and catch 22s

2008-02-16T06:29:45Z

I'm going to Florida for the week. If I didn't tell you don't be offended. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it.

Simultaneously, the point permeates my heart while the hilt crushes my head.

I wish you could see past this mask.
I wish I knew where the mask began and ended.

I need to leave. I need to stay.

I can't leave. I can't stay.

I need to be alone. Please don't let me be alone.

Da capo al fine.

jazztothemax @ 2008-01-24T22:20:00

2008-01-25T03:20:07Z

I can't seem to be able to stop crying.

jazztothemax @ 2008-01-21T23:47:00

2008-01-22T04:47:34Z

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same."

But it's still fucking hard.

And sometimes it's not the same.

Life is confusing.

jazztothemax @ 2008-01-03T18:22:00

2008-01-03T23:24:19Z

Dear teachers,
Please stop pointing out that we will never be as smart/talented/good as last years class. I'm sick of hearing about it from almost all of you. We get it. Now shut the hell up so we can try and get out of their shadows.
Kthanks.
-Mariah

My life.

2007-12-24T20:38:41Z

I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying.
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut?
That goes without saying.
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart.
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at.
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at.
But now we'll never know.
I wont be sad but in case I'll go there everyday.
To make myself feel bad there's a chance I'll start
to wonder if this was the thing to do.

WARNING Vague post

2007-12-17T06:01:56Z

1) This weekend turned out pretty okay!
2) I miss you.
3) You never fail to disappoint me.
4) I can't wait to go to college. Mostly to get away from things. But at the same time I'm scared.
5) The snow looks pretty, too bad it's so cold.
6) Things would probably be better if I never talked to you again.
7) I hate watching movies alone.
8) You disgust me.
9) I'm glad I'm leaving soon because I'm becoming less and less tolerant of things/people here.
10) I don't think we should be friends anymore. Honestly.
11) I'm more than willing to break my own heart.
12) Sorry.
13) Vacation please.
14) The song Dark Come Soon by Tegan and Sara pretty much is me right now.
15) Do you even care? I'm just wondering. Because you certainly don't appear to.

Serious question.

2007-12-08T22:07:25Z

Will someone please take me to see a Spice Girls concert?!
please?

Amazing Week

2007-12-03T02:07:43Z

I just want to take this moment and tell you guys about how this week has been one of the best in my entire life.

Introduction - Tegan and Sara are probably my favorite band, and when I heard they were going to be in Detroit I went to buy tickets and they were already sold out....two months early. I also found out that they were going to be in Ann Arbor playing at a Borders on a Tuesday but I didn't have the car and my mom refused to let me skip...not awesome...BUT on to the amazing parts.

1) My mom attempted to get me autographs from Borders...it didn't work out but I did find out that they will be back in the spring!

2) Multiple dinner dates with people.

3) Charlotte's birthday dinner which lead to...

4) Surprise being able to go to the Tegan and Sara concert! The nice bouncer let me in even though it was completely sold out. The concert was absolutely amazing. Tegan and Sara are amazing.

5) I got to meet Sara!!!!!!! She signed my shirt and gave me a hug. :D

6) I got accepted to Florida State University, my number one choice school

7) Going to see THE GOLDEN COMPASS!!!!!! a week early with Samm, Rube, and Ms. Veresh!!

8) THE MOVIE WAS AMAZING! Granted, it didn't follow the book as well as I had hoped it would and a lot of the religious stuff had to be dumbed down because people are stupid. But it was an extremely well made, amazing movie that everybody must go see. (I personally liked the Golden Compass series significantly more than Harry Potter. Opinions? I'm not interested in your opinion unless you've read both though. Otherwise it's unfair.)

9) Human Body exhibit at the science center

10) Got a 9 on a Peggy impromptu

11) I got offered a job as either a) a crew hand or b) an Emmy girl at the Michigan Emmy Awards in June.

12) And most importantly going out to dinner and to Borders with Billy love. :P

:D

jazztothemax @ 2007-10-28T23:02:00

2007-10-29T03:03:20Z

Sometimes old friends are the only cure for new pain.

jazztothemax @ 2007-08-11T08:41:00

2007-08-11T12:41:55Z

Just so you know...I hate it when people say they are not going to vote for Hillary Clinton because of what her husband did.

What the shit?

Rhetorical Question

2007-07-24T05:51:44Z

How is it that human beings can know that something, someone, or some situation is bad for them...but continue to not leave it?

...And why am I so good at it?

Non-rhetorical Question

If you could choose one emotion (or more?) to describe yourself, what would it be? And by describe yourself I mean more...describe your thoughts. Happy and sad work but I'm hoping you all will be more creative than that. I think mine would be a mix of jealousy and frustration. Not that I'm never happy.

I still find myself compulsively checking livejournal even though nobody ever uses it anymore. Habit, I suppose.

jazztothemax @ 2007-06-19T16:32:00

2007-06-19T20:33:58Z

My report card makes me laugh.

All A's and a D+

wtf jaksa?! Thank you for killing my gpa. :D You would think that the administration would see that and wonder at least a little about the class and teaching methods...

jazztothemax @ 2007-06-04T15:59:00

2007-06-04T20:01:15Z

I'm unsatisfied with my life right now.
Not unhappy...just not satisfied.
I feel like I need something more. Something different.

jazztothemax @ 2007-05-28T23:42:00

2007-05-29T03:43:30Z

Awwwww, day ruined! Kay thanks!!! Please disappear now from my life.

awesome.
: )

Book Request

2007-05-20T20:39:45Z

If anybody out there is looking for a book to read I have a great one.
Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides. It's only for you if you have a relatively open mind though. It's a story about the genetic history of Calliope Stephanides, a psuedo-hermaphrodite. I know it sounds kinda weird but its soooo amazing. You get to feel so connected to each character and each generation of the family and you get drawn in to not only Cal's personal drama but that of their entire family history. It's really interesting and it's very emotional. So if you want a good read...that would be my recommendation.

Anybody else have any amazing books they want to share? Give me a the title, author, and a short description. I plan to read a lot this summer. : )

jazztothemax @ 2007-05-16T16:43:00

2007-05-16T20:43:53Z

shitshitshit.

jazztothemax @ 2007-04-30T20:02:00

2007-05-01T00:04:36Z

Post your favorite...

a) Song
b) Band
c) Movie
d) Book
e) Color

here. :D Just for fun.

Vacation

2007-04-15T15:41:01Z

Sooooo every year we go down to Florida and stay with my grandma and grandpa on this little island....and its always a good time but this year was definately the best.

1) I met this girl at a graduation party for a family friend who is the Sea Turtle care coordinator at my favorite aquarium. So when we got down there I called her up and she said that I could come visit her at the aquarium and she would show me what she does. (For those of you who don't know...I want to be a marine biologist so thats why this is cool) I got to see her train the sea turtles and she told us about training the manatees and she gave me a bunch of advice about college. She pointed out who was working with reef life and the sharks so I could talk to them and stuff. All around it was pretty sweet. She said that I could come back in the summer and she would let me shadow her for a day. :) Hopefully I'll do that.

2) I visited my dream college. Florida State University. It was fuckin awesome. I loved it there. We took a tour of the campus, which is relatively small because its old, but this also means that everything is old Gothic style architecture so everything looks like a castle. They have a dining hall they call the Harry Potter room. baha. The we called the biology department and we went and talked to the Assistant Dean of Biology. That was cool, he gave me a lot of insight to what classes I should take and stuff. I liked him a lot. BUT here comes my rant section of this post.

I learned on this college tour that most colleges count class ranking for or against you. But they also say that the weigh their grades...so for instance...if you have an AP class and are getting a 3.0 in it, a B, they add a point since its AP and you you have an A. So my question is...WHY doesn't Ferndale weigh our grades for class ranking. It doesn't make any sense to me...that if class ranking really does matter, why kids that are taking easy classes and getting 4.0 are ranked higher than kids who are taking all honors classes and getting a 3.8. Maybe I'm wrong about this...

Opinions?

P.S. I think it should be mandatory that every teenager reads The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

jazztothemax @ 2007-04-04T22:01:00

2007-04-05T02:03:51Z

Leaving for Florida tomorrow. It's gonna be awesome...I need this vacation so badly. However, I didn't really get to say a proper goodbye to anybody so...goodbye! I hope everybody has a great break.

Text message me in your free time to further my fun having experience.

p.s. I'm doing a college visit at my dream school while we're there. :D (soexcitedomg)

again with the "Just wondering."

2007-03-27T04:12:13Z

I ask more questions on lj than I post things about myself.

I have a question (surprise)...

Do any of you have an honest to god "love-hate" relationship with somebody? Tell me about it...but don't say any names.

Just curious...

2007-03-16T03:18:01Z

I had a really horrible dream last night...like one of those wake up sobbing dreams...so I was just wondering...

What is the worst dream you've ever had?
Do you have any reoccurring dreams?

Tell me about them!
Comment anonymously if so you wish.